looking for passion

upset and depressed about the work, which is not a good thing. And I realised that management is really a serious topic.Those who are on the position should read some books (Drucker, probably). Or it's hard to lead the team. But maybe people like me (I guess I am kind of sentimental , plus sensitive) are not suitable to be in this postion. I think I am diligent...or it's just my assumption? I wanna travel...again